Forgiveness is the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, lets go of negative emotions such as vengefulness,
In this present scenario, why kind of hell is happening. I am feeling my self-dumbfounded and bothered of this mentality of people. If I, (we) they are wrong, ridiculous whatever and I, we, they accept that very mistake? But why they didn’t forgive us when we ask for forgiveness. What an inconceivable nature they have.
I was at porch thinking of folks whom with I interacted till date and suddenly something came in my inward eye. What’s that? It was a conversation of the friends, who we time realised me that I can’t be there best friend. I think they were inflated by a hoax that I cheated with them. By that, we did daily base quarrels.
Which were means of hate and separation between us?
Meanwhile, I accepted my accepted my mistake, and let myself to be relaxed. And after some time I conveyed them whatever happened between you and me, let that be engraved.
In some time I heard that they hate to listen to my name. I kept quiet. And say its ok. I thought these people are spreading the rumour and try to make hate in our hearts. But I was wrong!
I asked them is this reality that you have irritation by listening to my name? You know what they answered, by which I was devastated. Now I was juggling with my self how to tackle there answer. My sorrow became more and more. So what I do, simply accepted my mistake. I asked For forgiveness. They forgive and move on. That time I thank them. But something which created bothering in my heart, my emotions were not able to come in balance.
To check whether they have really forgiven me means by soul or by physical words, I created fake I’d on FB, Instagram. I said them I am a friend of Bilal, and asked them about me, I.e about my nature, character and they said what was not in reality then. I astonished what is this, how they can be so silly. They ruined me, in public, on social media. But kept quiet, I thought they may change their behaviour. But none result. So I tolerated their sayings about me. And my thinking was absolutely right, that they had forgiven me by words, not by the soul.
It was midnight, 12.oo a.m, looking at stars, in the shade of moonlight, crying, cribbing, begging to Almighty for forgiveness. I feel totally free soul not feeling any kind of desolation. So, all this was a kind of fear, their not forgiving, hating whatever. List bit feeling sadness but I am fine now.
The one who tried to make out this scenario was my beloved cousin. Who told me that there be naysayers, there will be haters, there will be disbelievers. This too shall pass. God has a great plan for you. This was a kind of therapy, ah! What an amazing therapy, all sadness faded away.
Now come to the point, that is forgiveness. As Allah says in the Quran, in surah, Araaf chapter no.7 verse no. 199. ﺧُﺬِ ﺍﻟْﻌَﻔْﻮَ ﻭَﺃْﻣُﺮْ ﺑِﺎﻟْﻌُﺮْﻑِ ﻭَﺃَﻋْﺮِﺽْ ﻋَﻦِ ﺍﻟْﺠَﺎﻫِﻠِﻴﻦَ
Meaning;
show forgiveness, enjoin what is good, and turn away from the ignorant.
Life is a short period enjoy every moment of life, as I mentioned make forgiveness, who so ever needs to be forgiven. Because it is a good quality of Muslim.
Allah created us, who is glorious, merciful and honoured, all praise to Allah, says in Quran about forgiveness in surah Az_ Zumar chapter no.39 verse no 54, that ;
‘O My Devotees, who have committed excesses against their own selves, do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Surely, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed He is the most Forgiving, the Merciful’
Also, Allah has mentioned in surah Ash_Shura chapter no. 42 verse no. 40, that;
We then learn ‘And the recompense of evil is a punishment like it, but whoever forgives and amends, he shall have his reward from Allah; surely He does not love the unjust’.
So, my dear, we have been inflated a gas, that by forgiving some will reduce our respect, honour, etc, don’t fell in this wrong ideology. When Allah forgive us, Who is the sustainer of this world, lord, majesty, potentate, when He forgives us a lot of our sins but never, make us hopeless?